Friday things
Wandered down to my local coffee spot this morning. Five minutes and there. There’s the one table where I can watch the busy street. Yet I feel far enough away to ignore it sometimes. The family that owns it are nice people. Both like to stop and talk. Their son is very gifted I think. Enjoys just talking about life and times. In English.
Lately it’s been this need to not be at the house. I’ve disliked it since we got there and some days I cannot manufacture the outward looks of bland contentment. Instead I guess me bleeds through. There’s no hiding true feelings and people here sometimes think those things are best repressed. Hidden away in the personal place. I can’t be that way. Too many years gone by. People too.
Now the escape is here.
This becomes my Friday thing now. This slow pace to my morning. I guess not been sleeping well lately. Last few nights have felt like I just could not get hours in and end up awake at various times. Perhaps another reason why I need to be elsewhere. The house just isn’t comfortable. It never feels like a refuge. Where the daily things are checked at the door. Instead things that don’t belong infiltrate and become talking points.
Maybe all the things become hold overs when I do want sleep. Then it doesn’t come and I end up wishing my time to go was sooner.
Now though I have a respite from some of the things that always seem present. I just take them along but they sit behind my firewall and no ports are open whilst I coffee. Instead I watch.
Write on a Friday. Skies are kind of mixed up. Like is it gonna be rain. Sun. Both. Yes and maybe and no. And I don’t know. It’s easier to be the spectator right now. I always have my phone in personal focus mode. Things can come and go this way. I don’t really see them.
That’s the morning. Gonna change this up a bit and write some more when I finish my time out. See you then.
Later the same day
Really nice walk here and there today. I had felt kind of tired and not really wanting a walk until I got out and going. Somewhere in this whole thing, then body, mind, heart and soul shift gears. They all together find my daily practice. Revel in it. Enjoy just the movement.
I’ll be going downtown today for whatever reason so now’s a good time to let this go to the tender mercies of Netlify.
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